Nobody's perfect but also not equal just like a taste of ciggie in my pocket named SevenStars, you know?

 　I know nobody gives a fuck about it. Everyone knows that bullshit. A famous police man said "The life is shit". Yeah, as he said, life is fuckin piece of shit. Everyone knows that life is shit and many of them shut their mouth like statues in the museum. Few of them like me complains about our life. Whining, crying, screaming, shouting, smoking, fighting, fishing, sucking, fucking...you know we're enjoying the life some how. 

　That's why nobody leaves words for people like me. They know I can hack it, carry on breathing everyday. They're right. They know I'm alright even if I am whining about my pain. Pain, what is that? There is no certain basis about pain, so nobody can't guess how much that pain hurts. Some people says "Pain is weakness", but for me, "Pain is pain". I don't know what other people thinks about pain. So, most of people keeps shut the mouth up until he/she screams "HELP!". Sometimes, we miss that sign and kills the man. 

　Thus, life is goddamn motherfuckin piece of shit. In other words, pack of damn. Everyone knows that and I know that. The life is full filled by pain, but sometimes there are some pleasure. I know that the word "pleasure" is very cheap expression but that is why I am living, that is why I did not die earlier. Sometimes I feel I should die before 20. I means its too late to die. However, I will not die until I got enough satisfaction. I'm not sure what satisfy me but, I'm looking forward to get that. You know, people are just like traveler who is looking for the happiness. Someday, I hope I can catch the bluebird. 

 

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　何か英語な気分だったので、言ってみた。スルー推奨。

 

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　イラスト描けず。少しだけヤプーを読み進める。表現力ってこう言う事だよなぁ、と思いながら読む。ストレートに言わないんだけれど、十分に理解出来る範囲での、言わば易しい「隠語」をどう書くか、だよなー。詩もそうであれば良いんだろうけど、それが続くと読みにくくなるんだよねー。んなのは読者の身勝手な言い分なんだろうけどさ。俺は鬱陶しくて好きじゃないんだ。だからストレートばっか。まぁ目が肥えている人にはつまらん文字の羅列に見えるのだろうなぁ。

　しかし、ふわふわとした感情を文字にするよか、生活に根付いたソリッドな感情の方がグッとくるんだよね、多分。だから、ものを作る人間は「生活」をした方が良いと思うんだ。俺の勝手な意見だがな。

 

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　バイト先に電話した。来週の木曜日、夕方に店長とお話です。…この感じ、多分復帰出来ねーんじゃないか？まぁ、だとしたら丁度良い。新しく、稼げるバイトを探そう。あとはHDビデオカメラ及び照明機材の情報収集。

 

　泣いて泣いて泣いてチンピラになって、プロのチンピラになる！ってな。堅実でまともな人生もいいが、楽しい方を選ぶのさ。楽な方じゃないだろうけどな。

 

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　オレンジ色のベースをアンプにぶっ繋いで、ヴォリュームを目一杯あげて、一番太い弦を思い切り引っ叩く！酷く歪んで割れた音が飛び出す。ブーン！それが騒音で無く、音楽なのなら、一緒に遊ぼう！

 

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　腹、減ったなァ。